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天渐渐凉了。远处吹来的风在林立的楼宇间嗖嗖作响。我迎来了我在北方的第一个冬季。才是10月，早晨的气温就只有2度。我想起去年的生日，我仅仅是穿着一件体恤外穿一件衬衣，还敞开了扣子和朋友们穿行在武汉的街头。

在寒风中行走，落叶已经一地。韩子煜曾经说过，在寒带，树叶比较难被微生物消耗，所以落叶能够在地上保留很久。小逯昨天跟我提起了北京的香山，我真想去看看。我想象我走在铺满红色枫叶的山路上，风衣领遮住了我半张脸。上周末和世博一起去秦皇岛的CBD庆祝他的20岁生日。喧闹过后，内心很快又开始压抑。欢乐总是那么短暂。

我想让自己忙一些。让自己不要去想那些人和事。那些也许只是我在西湖边做的一个梦。什么都不存在。梦醒了，也该回到现实了。由于H1N1的原因，英语角活动一直没有被团委批下来，这周播音的主题我不太感兴趣，看看什么时候硬着头皮把资料都看一遍吧。忙一点好。每天我骑着自行车经过燕宏桥，往返于电台，宿舍和教室之间。我认识了很多不错的朋友。

但是孤独和寂寞却无时不在，它们找准了每一个可能的机会，汹涌地向你袭来。在去食堂的路上，在浴池洗澡的时候，在抬头饮水的那几秒，在拿出钥匙开门的瞬间。我会想起那个人。很想很想。小熙说，为了一个不在乎你的人，不值得。

也许他是对的。

也许。

有一天我做了一个梦。梦见那个人和我一起走在夜晚的街道上。我走到前面，回头看见那双清澈的眼睛。可是后来我再回头看的时候，那人已经不见。我记得我当时内心的痛苦和压抑，仿佛那天我在首都机场，错过了回家的航班一样。我就那样蹲在街上哭泣。我渐渐苏醒过来，按亮iPhone，最上面的数字显示3：11.

晚上我又去二食堂吃了鸡蛋炒饼。只是因为好吃，我就要跑那么远去买。所以我觉得我这个武汉人当的还是够格的。今天听说学校把唯一的出口封闭了，也不知道还有没有另外的出口能够越狱。无期限封校啊。

我把那个人的名字改成了C，我害怕看见那个中文名字。一个字母可以混在电话本里，不致于那么容易被我认出来。我看了看我们最后的聊天记录，还是在夏至未至的五月份。曾经说过一起去旅游，给我买NIKE鞋子，我都不会忘记。我也会想，如果我站在那个人的角度，会不会也是这样呢。

燕宏桥很久没开景观灯了。晚上我骑车回宿舍的时候，差不多是摸黑回去的。我又想起那晚和小勇吃火锅，他送珊珊回家之后，骑车载我穿行在武汉的夜色中：青年路，香港路，建设大道。光兴和他的女朋友，分分合合，像一则琼瑶的小说。

生活，时时刻刻都在进行着。

方君哥。我要来乌镇呢。

2009年9月25日21点51分。我的比赛结束在这一刻了。

外国语学院的老师给我的即兴演讲题目是"a lesson for life"，准备时间是10分钟。我在这10分钟里实在不知道应该说些什么。10分钟，也无法现编一个故事。我断断续续的想起暑假里我一个人走在北京街头的情景。我记得那些树，光，还有影。我记得安静的地坛，安定门附近的杀马特们，还有798的火车头。

---不要害怕走错路。只有不停地走错，你才会真正知道，正确的路，在哪里。

我上台之后，说了一些支离破碎的句子。不到一分钟。然后我说了两次"I'm sorry."台下的评委说，是不是没准备好，再去准备一下吧。我说，不必了，我真没法讲下去了。

然后我就离开了人文馆401室。我不知道以后是不是还会有机会进入这个外院的教室，但是这一定会是第一个让我记忆深刻的燕大教室。

culture smart or science intelligent，我和高吉，光兴一起准备了两个晚上。我们对这篇稿子花了很大的心思。我自己认为我玩准备得比较充分。所以在命题演讲环节，我过关斩将，留到了最后。

                                   Culture Smart or Science Intelligent?

Ladies and Gentlemen, good afternoon! I’m very glad to stand here to share my veiwpoints about ‘culture smart or science intelligent’ with you.

At the frist sight of ‘culture smart’,i was thinking about another two expressions: ‘school smart’and ‘street smart’.School smart,we can see its meaning from the word.It means someone has an academic achivement.And street smart means someone has lots of common sence of communicating.So when it comes to culture smart,my understanding is knowlege of culture and to use them in a wise way.

When we go to a foreign country,the most probably problem we meet would be the different culture.As we all known,each nation has its own culture.People in different areas have different ways to deal with problems.Culture itself,we can look it as experiences or group habits.It comes into being during the long river of history.Of course,they are preious.

Science intelligent,in my mind,is to use of scientific knowlege in a wise way.The spirit of science,is to explore unknow objects in exact measures.For example,before a new medicine put into production, scientist will test them on small animals,then on humen beings, these necessary steps can make sure that the medicine is safe to us.

With the development of society,there are so many things to be explored.Such as the sun,then moon,even the earth we live on .In culture history,human beings ever insist that there is a beautiful lady on the moon with her little rabbit.Of course this is a fairy tale.After the first spaceship which was sent into space to collect informations on the moon,people got the reasult that there were probably no lives on the moon.Yes,maybe many people would feel very disappointing about it,but in my opinions,it is the beautiful fairy tale that make people want to know what the moon turly is.

The relationship between culture smart and science intelligent is just like the two sides of a coin.Each side has its own positive functions when we deal with our works,but they can not be seperated.In modern society,culture is a must to all residents.Culture helps us to live in a harmony environment,and science can be useful tools to our production needs. They both play important roles in our life.

Specailly,i want to point out that culture comes first in most of the time.That means,if science wants to be improved,culture will give it a clear derection.The Renaissance is a good example.After those outstanding literay and artistic works appeared, astronomy and mathematics access to a rapid development.So,ladies and gentlemen,either culture smart or science intelligent is so useful to our life that we can not leave any of them behind.

Thanks for your listening!

感谢邢胖子对我的指导，感谢机械院的所有英语老师对我的肯定。

感谢所有在校内上支持我的朋友们。

感谢我自己。

感谢这次放弃。

附：culture smart or science intelligent 录音  演讲者：胡宇翔